Ang Isang Baliw

Mahirap ipanliwanag ang ibang tao kapag sinabi nang schizophrenia kasi di na alam ano klase sakit yon....
Pero kapag sinasabi m nang baliw madaling isa isip kc nailalarawan sa isip nila yon... Laging ka na lang sinasabi nila ay sobrang talino at may lahing ka baliw... kayat di m maiiwasan...Labis ko ikinalulungkot ganun na lang kasi di mo matatakasan ang tunay mangyayari sa kinabukasan na susunod henerasyon.. kasi baka sa sususnod ay mag-aalaga ka naman isang baliw paano kung maysakit ka rin at mahina...Paano n sya ? Sino ang aalaga sa kanya ? Ang ating gobyerno ba may sapat proteksyon sa mga taong maysakit na baliw... Bakit nga sila nasa kasalda dahil wala sila pera panggamot o pang-ospital... Ganyan na lang mangyari pabayaan na lang... May ilang lugar na may ospital sa mga mental patient pero may mga lugar wala iprivate m o public di pwede solo sya kailanagan pa rin babatayan ... nasaan ba ang mga nurse at caregiver nasa abroad... ganito n lang ba mangyayari sa atin mamayan... Ito mga baliw tinatrato na natin sila zombies o patay na buhay... sila parte nang buhay kailangan na servicio medical... di nila kasalanan na magkaganyan... o nga may mga sanhi sila na ganyan sila dahil sa drugs at sa alcohol o alak o barkada... paano ganyan sila di maibalik sa katinuan pabayaan na lang ... Mabuti pa ang isang baliw di alam ginagawa nila... eh yon iba tao alam n baliw na sinasamantala ang pagkabaliw... nirape pa.... sana n lang pinatay na lang sila kapag nirape eh pinababayaan pa mabuhay di lalo sya nabaliw dagdag pa nang problema sa kin pag-iisip...
Minsan    tinatanong ko ang kapatid ko ano ba ang nasa isip di niya maipaliwanag kasi yon nga gusto mahirap pigilin ang kanyang pag-iisp... kasi nga nasa programa para batang bolahin m at ipaliliwanag m nang maayos sa kanya... yon paraan matigil sa balak nya mangyari... paano naubosan ka isasagot at wala ka maisasagot ganyan mangyari trahedya mangyayari at affectado ang lahat budget at trabaho...
Totoo ang buhay mo iikot sa kanya di pwede kasi may trabaho ka inaasikaso at may plano dapat isasatupad... hay naku ang hirap... ipray m daw sabi nila oo nga pwede ba depende sa ginagawa mo kung wala kang ginawa wala gracias ka matatanggap..

Ito ang mga taong baliw akala mo normal pero kapag kausap talaga iba ang isasagot nila... ito loob nang mental... halo ang babae at lalaki... zamboanga city
Ito si dondon , isa wala kamag-anak na kasama panay ang sigaw niya sa loob at ikot nang ikot sya... at nakalimutan ko name nang girl kaso niya malalaswa ang sinasabi sa mga ibang lalaki... isiniseduce niya ang mga lalaki... sabi daw na sinaniban daw nang masama ispiritu at unstoppable ang pagsasayaw... kahit wala tunog...Ok si dondon kapag sinabi m kakanta sya kakanta ...uutal sya magsasalita at bisaya sya pwede kausapin

Kapag may makakaya ka ganito semi-private sa mental ospital ...nakatali ka o nakaposas sya para di tatakas o manakit nang iba pa.

ito wilson wala sya kamag-anak... noon una nakakatakot sya laging hanap nang hanap sa paligid nang sigarilyo kung meron... natatakot talaga sa kanya parang sya si kamatayan.... akala nakita ko sin kamatayan... grabe

Ang Pagmamahal sa akin Kapatid

Ito ang public ospital sa zamboanga na dinala ko sa Zamboanga ...

Ito ang kapatid maysakit na schizo...

Ito ang tatay namin kasalukuyan nasa elderly house po sya inaalagan

Lahat bagay nais mo maisip sa kapatid na ibigay mo kaya  lang di rin sapat... Ano dapat paraan maging maayos sya maging normal kmi ang isip namin...Alam ko mahirap ipaliwanag sa mga tao ito ang sitwasyon na sakit na schizo (sakit sa pag-iisip) nakikita nila healthy ang katawan nila pero naiiba pa rin ang kinikilos nila... laging sinabi nang iba na may sinasanibang masama enkanto...
Naghanap ko nang solution o doctor na magpapaliwanag ano ang nangyari sa kapatid, bakit sya ganyan... kaya isa lang ang sinasabi nang mga doctor may sakit sya schizo... Alam ko ikinahihya nang relatives ko ang sakit na ganyan ano magagawa ko itataboy ko n lang b sya... nang ganun.. O balewala na lang siya sa paningin di na papansin... di pwede kailangan niya   ang tulong ko lalo ngayon. alam ko wala na solusyon sa problem kundi harapin at tanggapin ang nangyari sa kanya... Mahirap pero kailangan.. Ipaliwanag ko sa iba pero di pa rin naiitindihan kailangan nya ang mga mamahalin na gamot pero wla ko magagawa sa kanya sakit... kailangan maghipit nang sinturon para mabili ang gamot...Di lahat pasyente na schizo ang pareho ang kalagayan nila laging ko sinasabi magkaiba ang kapatid ko ... oo nga iisa ang sakit nila pero laging sinasabi ko ang cases ni nez... Ngayon ipinaliwanaag ko sa kanila ang sitwasyon ko laging sinasabi n kulang sa pray daw .... kahit ano luhod ko at tagal ko sa altar at matindi dasal... ito na ang destiny ko n sa buhay... Mahirap ibalance ang trabaho sa pagtuturo sa klase tapos may aalaga ka pa na schizo... Ang dasal ko lagi gabayin n lang ko ni lord sa lahat nang gagawin ko... Kung kukunin sya ni Lord kailangan handa ko sa financially at emotionally... Lalong ngayon nasa elderly home ngayon ang daddy namin... ang gastos pa dun di bale makita maayos si daddy sapat n yon sa amin.. Matagal ko na sinasabi kaya lang mahirap umitindi sa amin sitwasyon...Talaga ang hirap kailangan maging matibay ka sa bawat tatahakin hirap sa buhay... Ewan ko saan ko nakukuha... gusto minsan makinig nang maganda balita pero sa tunay kalagayan nakikita ganyan ang pamilya saan k pa... di ba... ang hirap... pero makuntento ka sa simpleng kaligayahan   binigay sa u nang diyos na maayos ang pamilya at buhay sila ...
May tutulong kaya sa amin.. sana may maawa sa amin sa sitwasyon namin sa buhay...

My Sister Nez

This last two weeks ago may younger sister got sick of high fever... I sponge her her whole body with a cold small towel  so that the fever might go down. I told my myself  it just a simple fever so i bought her more fruits and drink vita pluz but no improvement.. Since  then she cant walked.I thought  to brought her in the  hospital. First she needs to go the laboratory for blood test. But my suspect was  acute typhoid the doctor told me she laboratory in typhoid is negative... Next day I cant carry her going to the bath for urine ..  I  told to myself  my sister nez to confined in the hospital public but in the public hospital in the  Calamba  has no isolation room... We need  bring her to the private hospital... Since then our vehicles just left so we have no other choices to contact our barangay  kaptain in Mapagong Bitoy Villanueva.

My problem  when we arrived in the hospital I dont have any money for downpayment... My cousin helped me lending her money ten thousand pesos... My mind  was all blackout totally shut down... in the public hospital, the doctor diagnose Nez that she a meningdiatis means illness has a fever goes up in the  brain... I thought  of losing her... Another chances of life in the part  of sister... Wow that a miracle ,  i thought going die in the private hospital since there is a isolation room . She  was diagnose Hepa A and Urinalysis Tract infection...I thinking she a always  drinking softdrinks and some street foods so she got those illness.

      Then some expenses coming up expenses from the private hospital... We expenses 56 thousand plus... At first my cousin Mary Grace gave 10 thousand, my tita cora gave ten thousands, then my sister eliza 25 Thousand, 6 thousand. then my friend jheng help me taking care of my sister nez and she brought some foods and mineral water....and she lend me her almost thousand pesos and mam peralta lend 5 thousand and my kumare melai lend me 3 thousand... imagine to cope up the 10 thousand bills in the hospital if i cant pay it i will make my collateralize this my small netbook... so thnakful i dont make collateralize... 

Here the pictures ;

The expensive dextrose... since i cant pay the hospital i buy the dextrose...

Names of the doctors Dr Murrilio is a neuropsychiatric and Dr Restuto is liver doctor residence doctor. 

Note dr restuto has no heart for his patient imagine dont have any money he still want us stay longer paid more... 

This is my father... got irritated

This video taken when i want to have a picture that there is a latest newspaper manila Bulletin.. This is a requirement the pensioner is still alive so i have  to take him a picture.. with update newspaper....

You can see , being alcoholic person u can see the skin is dry and he can easily irritated if things are done slowly and cant be wait..

I should be more patient on him and more understanding... I know how hard to be taking of them... seeing them that they alive ur life is already complete and satisfied even thought how hard  is it...

First, He is my father no one can understand him only his own children...Give him more time to cure himself and  pray over him... I know that is the best cures that i know..  is  the miracle coming  from God...

There are i want to give with him but I pity on him... Not pity that I rely on him and i love him so much...

I hope someday he will be ok and i will take care of him...

I LOVE YOU DADDY..... I MISSED YOU SO MUCH ... PLEASE GET WELL SOON..

My sister Ninez had a Schizopremia

When we were  a little girl, we dont know what happen to our mother... They told some bad spirit that enters in the body of mom and we ignore these things that happen to our mom... Then later our  classmates and my playmates told my mother is crazy person keep on laughing without nothing happen ... making hallucinate things... which not exist... I keep on asking Why these things happen to us... and why God in the beginning gives things burdened... When these things pass by... we think our studies and our career . I passed a Licensure Examanition For a Teacher.  I am now a permanent teacher in a certain public elementary...in calamba city
Our second younger sister, got finished her two degree course which AB Psychology and a teacher she also passed the exam... and she a units in Masteral Degree... Since then she didnt want stay in teaching.. so got married.. to a british man and stay for 8 years in United Kingdoms.. She had a son..
Our Youngest sister, had excellent in her exam..Out of her schoolmate in Science High School in Zamboanga City. She is  the only one who got the scholarship in Department of Science and Technology. During her high school she the champion in chess in our city.. And in college, she was varsity of the school chess... so our father was proud of her...
Since then she got in the fraternity and got involve in drugs, taking marijuana and I dont things she takes.. because influence of her barkadas. So got  that sickness of schizo... At first, I dont know what kind of illness , I thought I will pray in God hard she will cure... But things happen it more money, attention and understand of her. Dont give more stress... Give more inspiration. As a family you should be happy what changes she has now..,She can be more productive like anybody else.. like cooking , cleaning, Typing a test paper in school.. Thing like that...But some people dont understand, they think the illness expensive and thinking those medicines should take in because they dont be more dependable on the medicines. It need more pray.
My sister nez , if she wants to drink more softdrink.. right now because existing stress in her mind if she drinks the big liter of soft drinks makes satisfied her needs and makes her happy... But now she sick of UTI.. according to her laboratory result she is poor in potassium. She cant walk. Most of the tym she vomit the food she takes..I dont know what to do I dont have enough... I afraid that i have no money buying medicines for schizo and for the doctors fees. Now her urine is full blood and her sight is blurred..   I have to do something about her condition.. Please Lord help me and my sister nez....

Napoleon A. Chavez is the best father , I m proud with...

 He is my father who I am proud for..Because when I was small he was the take care of us.. Even my mother has symptom of schizophrenic... He is trying hard his three daughters to grow normal like other families has.. When he was young he was worked in the Air Force military based in Zamboanga. City. After his work, he had to cook for his family and change the diaper when we are little. I know what my father plans for us when we are little he wants to finish our degree and had a good job and successful career.


                                                             He got retired when he was age 40 + , i think... he when to abroad for two years... I was then grade one and two...

After in Saudi, He planned to go in States with his elder sister.. Tita Luz.
But  a tragic incident that happened my mother got illness that was schizo... so my father  has to stay with us... and take care of three of us and my mother had bring her in the ospital for medication... she so violent.  Most time I saw some violent incident done with mother with my father.. My mother always quarrel my father... and my father is always patient with her...Hoping that my mother will be cured someday...

One day we finished our college degree.. and my younger sister got married to a bristish citizen and my youngest sister involves in drugs and got the illness of schizophrenic. My father becomes more stressed and become drunkard person... At first I don't understand him why is like.. that.. I thought I can fix this kind  of problem. And so I pray hard, I go to church and pray a rosary for my family...

That a things happen with our family... what a destiny .... to be happened.
 Now, My father is blaming all the lucks in his life, one is the illness of my mother.
Second my uncle junior... because of him all of planned was not granted..
and last the father of my mother he always went to our house to get money from mother... from the salary of father..

My last picture with my mom...

       

I LOVE  MY FAMILY




This picture taken when i go home in zamboanga city during April , 2012 which i have  to check my sister situation...  At left side is my cousin Ethleyn Apron related my mother side, next my sister Ninez she has an illness of schizo , then me that i am holding my father got a accident in riding a jeepney because of his being alcoholic. He lost his balance when he got off in the jeepney next my beautiful mom... which i missed so much she now in heaven ... last my uncle the father of Ethleyn.

When I  see my mom ... she always tell me she wants to go with me in Laguna and I promise when i have my own house i will go with me... since then she  gone my promise being broken... because the accident it should be prevented if my sister in uk listen to me... I told  to my relatives that the illness of nez is different... She needs these medication badly. She will be ok if she drinks this medicines but this medicines are too expensive. If only we can help each other my sister and the pension my father... I know it very hard to explain to my relatives... I always ignore and give importance  of the  situation my sister... They always tell me i had to pray n lang to cure my sister ... They don't understand praying is good if there an action... Schizo is not a wound that can cure... It is in the mind of a person full stress... which cannot to be control or calm down...

Living with a schizophremia

Living with a schizo, at first you don't know how  and understand them because you don't know what in their mind. Most of times they talk their selves, laugh without nothing happens, they having hallucination and keeping on walking with nowhere to go.... I am thinking what makes them more sick because most of time they none of talking and laughing keeping on walking, what gives them more stress, easy to say we can rely GOD but it different in actions... We cant do anything just pray but we can see them they don't hurt anybody or their selves...

There are times I am afraid to introduce to people that i have a sister and a mother who has schizo (baliw) they think that i am one will become like them...This time I have to accept them..what they are now. But I'm  keep on praying that i will not be one  of them.... My problem is my work it bothered me so much  Im teaching ... There are times I have to make an absences so that I can take care of my sister...

All the problems that encountered are all passed by like a wind means i survive...just dont think deeper and pray with our Lord mighty God.